mission - MC Donald

now, never could be going to MD needed detail planning and much thought for me thou...
but now ..is necessary
i woke up realizing it will be a hot day since the sun is already up and shinning although is only 930am
but hey..im on the mood for MD breakfast set ...although im not supposed to go out alone, let alone caught up having MD.
not a fan of MD but happened to stroll through the flyer every morning and tempted me so much...
IM on a mission..haha mum is no where to be seen for she's out...perfect plan to host some mischievous thoughts

i placed my beloved novel, arm with my bag and an umbrella for my balancing ...(in case) and the journey begins....is not that far..guess it lasted only 8 minutes and im here...

having a bit of difficulties to order as the waiter couldn't hear my ordering...i(i guess i need to learn a new tactic of ordering since my voice box is ......)

Coffee..i expected to taste devine ...yes the aroma sent thrill to me but the taste ..yaiks
is ok..i murmured to myself ...dig out my novel and chirping my hash brown..this is it...
Perfect...how i enjoy the moment

i wanted to buy a soft toy to mark my journey (I can do what ever i want regardless what condition im in for the game) ..a simple yet adventurous journey but alas ...the waiter couldn't understand me so i left empty handed expect full stomach.

chaperone

new word - chaperone
yes i been / am chaperone by ...1, no 2, no dozen of people
trying to be expert or assume their are expert
telling what to eat and what not to eat
claiming is for my own good

1st criminal - my mum- mrs. pretend knows it all
she nags, she mumble, she complaint and gosh ...she even asked me 'hav' i washed my hand after toilet!!
she cant waits for everyone to agreed with her, she has to tells everyone tat i become a big eater and like to consume daily products..(what wrong with it!)

2nd criminal - my dad- same
he said no junks food - less junk food - more oat - more green
and forces me to read all about cancerous disease

decision- decision

no one really talks after the doctor appointment
my dad too shock at the price of the laser
and yes..is confirm i be permanent deaf on the right ear, there wouldn't be any treatment for it. There's no explanation about my voice box..my voice been horse since then..barely talk with clear voice...the doctor said it could due to the tumor pressing against the nervous system...once again ...wouldnt know is this permanent or short term...any how...this is a bad news to me ..which i have to keep cool all the time because i cant raise my voice..if i wanted to...GOSH GODARMIT~~ i hate it

keeping low with my mum is already tough..thinking tat im have this voice box with me whole life...GOSH...i cant shout,scream or even speak 2 pitch higher ..DARN

the doctor suggested 2 option, to go for the surgery/ operation again to shrink the size of the tumor follow by laser or i can go straight for the laser which will cost alot ...well alot meaning a waja on my head? 70K even 70K i needed at least 10 session of laser everyday ....which is a hell to me ..talk about routine and chores...any either 1 there will be side effect ...ah!! already have it ....what could i say then ...OK bring it on~~

the cheapest way is STD another older version of laser but i will have to go through 25-30 times!! instead on 10!! the cost is differed too...about 30+k ....the doctor asked for my opinion..well to be honest ...am i in the right position to give and answer because my superior and inferior parent never / did not ask me ! i dun think i have the right to tell although 'hey it's me!'

...sign....speechless

bored

all i can say is food is the best consolation i turn to now
yes, im getting rounder and fatter ..thanks to those food who keeps
lure me into them and tempted me to give in more...

i wish so hard that i could consume my life normally so i wouldnt
be bound at home ...doing things what i call 'chorus of the day'

im sad..yea ..so sad and bored...

that's my life now..

cocunbine

-this book is all about the concubine politic affair not much about the love and city kinda thing- bored

book

- a journalist (fat, size 12) with no life after work - how to shrink to size 8 and life around her- i guess i be like her soon ....with my getting rounder ~~

bali-2005

-airport meal-

bali-2005

-outside hard rock-

bali-2005

-this is to tell you, how much to learn surfing-
-my instructor - forgotten his name-

bali-2005

-suprisingly this is good and i din have stomachache then - this was at road side - and the mee (in gree) is delicious

bali-2005

- it was at night, at some kampung, i was being tatoo for 2 hours..drawing the 'barong' took about 1 hour - this is really orang asli type -