what If I never met you

"what if i never met you" carrie bradsaw tells her friends.
all with red eye, tears gathering but not flowing down.

sometimes i question myself.
what if i never met you.

what would i be? will i be with some 'just friend'
who always keep me in their heart?
who always hang my name just beside their side lip or...
who always think no 1 deserve me cuz im the best.
who always here and there to critics
who always just laugh with my silly jokes
who always love me just for me.

what if i never met you?

what if i never met you, elmery?
what if i never met you, amanda?
what if i never met you, vivica?
what if i never met you, su yuen?
what if i never met you, jerryca?
what..what if i never met you, sophia?

EX and the City

Can we (female) really be friend with Ex after heated, cold fight, disagreement, heart broken, not tomention uncountable s.x yet still able to transfer passion one's have/had from ascended to descending scale of what-Eva-ship?

How awkward it is to have lunch or just a cuppa while reminding not to ask questions we may not like the answers , we are just friend. Being totally polite over everything. The whole scene is looks like a far- far- away long lost -what-evar-ship. We just don't really know how to bring questions with correct answers we earn to ask and hear.

Through conversation, probably be
1) How are you?
2) nice weather, yeah?
3) How's work?
4) How are you ...really?
5).....
6)....
7)....
8) How are you lately?

But what we really wanted to know
1) You seeing anyone?
2) Oh, so you are seeing that "someone" . How is it going?

When we find out information we will not fondly able to handle. We cant promptly think why..why why why.

And why
..why

why we dated for years and "she" only dated him for months can change so drastic?
He doesn't bring me out, but he bring his -GF- out everyday!
He use to said i'm clingy when i was his GF, and NOW he said his GF just want to spend more time with him!
He doesn't even plans vacation with me, he thought is wasteful. Now he bought Air ticket to different places in a Roll!
He doesn't like His GF to smoke, but his CURRENT GF smokes!

Just How fast can one's absorb all these transformation within a guy that just broke up month/s ?

Piled with jealousy, curiosity and unfairest treatment is hard to supress emotion not to ticks instantly.

Friend or no friend...all age of human stuck with this -what-Eva-ship-. Certainly hope there's a self help book with successfully de-code or formula how to run this ship.



life is hell complex, but that's why is beauty.