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started to feel edgy...why ?
today did a head gear / mask and another darn fucking MRI
the Mask session took an hour and haf ...
is not good ...the feeling isnt good either ...
my head pain..my neck stiffed
the mask is made from plastic and some kinda material ...
will be soft in hot water and get harder when it dispose to the air
so i was being laid on a platform with my head fixed-
was told not to make a single movement
-after much long ..they measured my face
the hot plastic was being lay behind my skull and the front of my face
the plastic gets cold and became hard but it was sticking to my wound
darn fucking pain when they pulled out ...
it took us about 10 min to pull out .... i was in great pain

it tooks 4 person to get the darn plastic sticking my skull

2 holding me, 2 behind finding the less painless way to get the plastic out
still feeling it now ...
cant really swallow my Silvia with the plastic in my mouth too ...
as its cover my nose ..makes everything uneasy

after much dragging...i had another scan
MRI- meaning anoter inject, i hate injection
this is longer than the usual 1 ...AN HOUR
with no head phone ..i culd hear loud bagging noise for 1 hour although there have nice
soothing music but i couldnt hear any it was covered by the bagging noise...
my buttock hurts...
my neck hurts...
tomoro another scan with my mask on...
im gettin sick and tired of all this
how am i going to endure another 28 days

miserable

im having mixed feeling now ...

is bored to heard the doctor said i have to spend 28 days of laser ..visiting hospital again

i learnt ..i had to go through 2 scan test again ...oohh..more injection

...sign....

positive side ..hey i have a mask tailor made for me

it learnt tat i mite be owning this sexy voice which im having now ...

oh..about the mixed feeling, is not so much b0ut this but rather other issue,

i pray to god, please provide me courage to sustain

for now, i think i going to exploit...erupted emotion