she and me
try not to think of negative stuff la...u are fine..u will be fine..just fine
why u like to dwell on negative side?
had nothing better to do ar?
- these are the frequent lines bugging me when im down-
-happens all the times-
but they don't really know how it feels or how hard to turn to the bright side
i have a meter, scaling my emotion from time to time
i guess its kinda spoil....
when i realized it, it kinda took my breathe away...
how do i realize it ?
when i doing yoga. suddenly i be tearing
when im walking happily to night market,
i wanted the heaven door just swing open for me...
although this thought has never change since April 2007
doubting when will it ...
i frequent talk to myself...
when i realise people especially friend/s, close friend/s, buddy, platonic friend/s
they don't like to listen to unhappy stuff
yea...who wants....
especially when ones can moan till the cow comes home
i frequent 'layan' my thoughts
we talk to each others
we cry and laugh together
gossip together..that's the only 1 i gossip to
basically we cry more than laughter and be merry...
she shares the sane liking as i do
we are emo-creatures da house !! -sign-
yea lets not sails...
we whisper abouts this topic all the time since childhood but things became clearer and crystal clear now, last day of October 2007!
-she : would you miss anything , anyone , if you leave planet earth Now or near future?
-Me : no..you kidding...you knew the answer all along
-she : why? u gotta miss something... u been around for 26 years Man!!
-Me : nothing special tat mesmerized me lar
-Me : beside im happy if god takes me, meaning im bery tha Fcuking good, ever heard that heaven and god will only snatch people from earth away because there's not enough of angel and ..as you known...qualification of angel is 'Be good' so if im taken, IM Good! Darn Angelic Goody dear...
-She : probably you be bored? face the same problem or even worst than here.
-Me : Yea, perhaps but then i be kinda brain dead right? isnt that cool?
-She : i bet your friend/s , your parent gona miss you.
-Me : LIFE GOES ON...no 1 is irreplaceable
- She : Why so sad 1?
- Me : .........sign............im tired, darn tired of chasing the world around for a fairy tale
- Me : should have not watch and believe in fairy tales! i hate but is too late now, can't turn back
- She : yes, you adore pretty woman!! watched it 36 times!!! you love mannequin!! can't imagine it when you get the DVD for it!
- Me : i can't stop myself from pleasing people surrounding me, boss/es, colleague/s, friend/s , buddy/ies, even stranger but if i can manage to please them, i be happy...but always, always there's something else to talk about...at the end i please no body and make worsen it...
- She : wont you gona fight? Happy ending for those who fights and waits..
- Me : baby im on self charging system, the system is dead , just waiting for the right time, right place to stop ticking...
- Me : even maybe, all my life i fighting the wrong battle. Or is this grown up crisis which i just cant take...think about it, maybe im a loser, timid, can't stand up !
......the talks continue for hourssss
posted by s:k:y @ 9:07 PM
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