hopelessly devoted

sandy sang " im hopelessly devoted to you~"
bring tears to my eye...
how could 2 fools feeling for each other but couldnt live 2gether...
perhaps that,s what we call "grow up"
we start to think all possibility which will fails us...
fails the other half too...
my heart saying "fool, don't let go"
but my brain telling me to move on ...

sinking deeper

back to Square 1....where i embark the journey so called
search a good life...
knowing what life means now
to some people ....life to them means "sail the boat"
to some people...life to them means " planning makes perfect"
to some people...they just crave what is best laid front of them...which is "as good as it gets"
to some people...they been on the field for long, they seen the worst, they expect the worst...
that's probably me...to me...things surrounding is all in Grey colour...

Imagine a world with just Grey...
Grey could be meant as depression, sad, upset, aggitated, easily excited over petty stuff, sometimes unrealistic ( this kept me going crazee )

what is life ....i been searching up and down...i see possibilities in everything which without planning yet it blossom to them so nicely . sweetly and seductive as well as tempted me as well....but what am i ? a mere spectacular...who thought i see or sense all but yet they tend to blossom mercily...what about me ...im still ere where i am...still riding , still hopelessly searching what so call life ...
what life is good to me ...
To lean Vs not to Lean
i l0ost concern at it ...i cant seem to bargain anything..perhaps life is just simple for me to follow which i tend to mark life difference.....

i wanted to fall ..sink into the deepest hole and not to imagine how people will react....
Yes ...i be the fool among all had seen...
Is okay....i think...
i just wanted to laid there forever ...maybe is comfort for me yet i do not need to keep on trying and failing and disapointment hit and hat me at low again....
Who am i to fight ...
dream...shall remain deep inside me ...