I'm not happy

In life, in realty, there's alot of things which makes one unhappy...as time goes on, we get slimmer chance connect to happiness.

some issue are pointless, some are ridiculous, some unchangeable, some are petty, some are just plain unhappy for sake of wanting to be unhappy.

I'm gonna say out why I'm not happy here and without guessing or doubt a lot of people will be cursing or saying I'm just bragging or whining.

I'm not happy because i got a FREE 2ND Gucci and Burberry tote. No doubt if the person found out about my unhappiness she'd glad to have it back ahah...sorry ka che

what is it I'm going through? if things happened last 2 years, i be happy as a little angel, flapping my wings and showing off my pride. I remember esther said to me last 2 years "nothing bid more than using Ur own sweat and tears - in this case, happens to be $$ - to buy what you like" i was telling her why she whine when 1 of her suitor gifted her an E bag. I replied " I be darn happy lor ...ain't care whether i bought it, he bought it or some 1 somewhere bought it FOR ME. As long as i have it, it will show that I'm capable of having it regardless sweat and tears.

now, I'b slapping my own face because I'm feeling what esther feeling now. The Gucci and Burberry tote been lying in the luggage since I'm back and i have no urge parading my darling down the street. what happen to me?

is this what they call enlightenment from the above?