wisdome, gone too soon

numb on my right side cheek, tongue, and some mouth muscle but it will not pro-long reality hit hard and pain, some say its call SUFFERING. I'm psycho-ing myself this very minute, telling my mind, its painless free to just extract 2 tooth in less than 15minutes. Its all in my mind that this numb-ness will go on for days till dental surgeon remove needle thread.

honestly, the mind game don't quite work, then. I almost shit in my pant while i can hear loudly a 10 years old girl screaming her lung out next door. Seeing a Dental surgeon is more horrifying than a Neuron surgeon. I was and still thinking hard how wasn't i freak out during brain tumor surgery but I'm chicken out at this tooth's plugging incident.

There must be some bad bad experience happened to me when i was small. Perhaps, frighten by the chair? the lights? the sounds of water nozzle? of just the creepy masked dental surgeon....why can't their have more fancier wall paper, perhaps TV or wat evar to distract chickhens!
Best part, i get to taste my own blood constantly. Its salty, who knows what it means? lack of calcium or too much salt?

it was telling me.I have to drink and eat with my left mouth...there's only 1 mouth! how to separate it?
I'm learning a new skill today !!
yea...eat with my left mouth...and learning to psycho my mind! it will be painless. Painless will be then!