when will this be over

feeling gloomy....
my radiosurgery has ended but i need to go back for check up after a month
skin peeling..everywhere
no appertite...
if people doesnt know me ...thought im pregrant
i feel like vomitting everytime i eat...
i wish i could throw everything in the blender and turn solid into liquid form
maybe can stop the feeling of vomitting...

im bored
boring...
yet i think lazy worn has caught me....
i dun feel like doing anything
or there's anything better worth my try...

i going for chinese physician now ...is the only hope i have
for gaining my old time voice and hearing back once again
...i went for the 1st time ...i didnt enjoy it ...
pain...or very da pain is all i could express
is aculpunture...never been afraid of the needle
but this is different
the chinese physician poked my right ear...my tear start rolling down
he then poked my throat...i felt pain while swallowing.
i was being told to mantain the posture for 1 hour....
and i have to go for at least minimun 12 times in order to know wherther if works

when will this be over?