mission failed

years passes....mission failed through years
feeling frustrated beyond words can describe
how can it be so tough to let go
every night i pray for a better day, sunshine kissing my face
but as dawn comes, i can see my failing again and again
have my being not learn anything through years of grinding
FACT ARE STUBBORN, but perhaps i misjudge my persistance

is night time, i cant see the moon nor a single star...
can some1 show me the way? dim light...IF ONLY I COULD TRACE
i hear calling...in me of ur name
i see shadow...is that you
or is jus illussion playing trick on me
blinded by a character which expired
folded by alibi which stint..I WISH
BUT ALL BEEN PLAY DOZEN TIME {NOTHING CONCREATE}

dint this hurtful enough to let go
dint this meant to END
dint this tell something a sign to stop
dreaming, believing, wishing, hoping, praying....

there's only last hope
hoping he'd be a man,confront me and let me die
rather than letting the wound get chill and pilled up salt on top
getting rotten and filled with parasite...

is it meant to be this way?
my KARMA?
does he ever fonded to me
does he has secret that he has to abandon me?
years i know nothing but just naively in craze of his belonging
I STILL DO...I STILL DO...

SKY...I WISH I HAVE THE GUT TO HATE